Girls home for break

Its been a very long Thanksgiving break with the girls home and I as the mother should have planned and prepared things for them to do but I didn't! So I guess you could say that I deserved the constant fighting and quarreling that has ever happened and I'm afraid that this is just the beginning for these two sisters.

But as I have reflected on my experiences with them it all started a few weeks ago when I began very lax in my parenting and have let them just have free reign of the household because I was in the spirit of Christmas and wanted them to enjoy all the movies, games, etc. while I just sat by the Christmas tree on the couch.

I also haven't been on top of my Accountable Kids system either. Just another thing I do to keep it sain around my house. I know that when I do it the household runs alot smoother and I'm happy as well as the girls.

I too realized that I hadn't been taking care of the person inside the mom and just let things Go! We all have those moments but this one tended to last a bit longer than usual.

It all hit me when I went to the temple of just how bad I had been and how I've let my "mom" let go. I needed that alone time for 6 hours to just think and contemplate on my goal as a mother and why I've always wanted to be a mother. Because the mother I was being was not who I envisioned in my head. I didn't like that mom and I wanted my old self back. I then realized that I wasn't taking the time to spiritually connect as a daughter of God and that I neglected my Savior and that in turn my family too was neglecting him too.

I know we all have our weaknesses and we constantly are learning and growing from our mistakes as well as others and I hope that by writing this out for myself I will recognize just how lucky I am to have these 3 children in my care. I adore them and want them to love and cherish me like I do to them.

I am currently reading "Parenting with Love and Logic" I've been really impressed with it so far and can't wait to finish it. Recap will come later but until then I will go take care of myself and have a slight break to recommit myself to Accountable Kids and the mom that I want to be. Wish me luck!