Another Powerful Moment

Started the day with a baptism and it was beautiful it was Reeghan's friend McKell from her primary class. I took the two girls and we enjoyed sharing that time together and talking about the importance of baptism.

That evening we had our adult session of stake conference. As a stake we are sustaining a new stake presidency tomorrow so the beginnings of the meeting were parting comments from the counselors.

We then were privileged to have Elder Allen Packer there. He is Pres. Boyd K Packer's son. The message was simple yet direct and it was that we need to tap into and find out from our own personal revelation how strong our testimonies are of our prophets, seers and apostles. Do they truly speak for God on earth?

I know they do and have known that but he then went on to say, Do your children know that you know? Wow! That was an eye opener for me and in this past year of General Conference I heard most speak about the importance of teaching righteous principles in the home and about family so I knew it was important but for some reason being in the presence of him and the way he said it meant more to me. I had received my own personal witness of it at that moment.

I returned home rejuvenated from my experience from being taught about listening and coming to your knees in prayer to find things out for yourself.

Then I walked into my bedroom and it was a disaster! The girls had clothes toys, etc strung all over the place and I just blew up and couldn't control my tongue and said things that just were wrong but of course no bad things, just in the moment stupid things.

It finally came to a point where I needed a timeout for myself and I do it quite often but this time I took the advice I was taught this evening and dropped to my knees and BEGGED for help.

I've had a few hard months as a mother and these girls are testing me and I was always looking for mans answers in books that I've read and not turning to the Lord to receive my own personal revelation as to what I needed to do for each child.

I've prayed all my life and knew I needed to pray when things got hard but became selfish and wanted to figure it out on my own which then lead me to books.

But tonight was a prayer like no other. I was very direct and it was a very humbling experience for me. I sat in my room crying and pleading for one more chance to be that mom I've dreamed of and to have my children feel loved by me. It was an amazing experience and I was so grateful to apply my knowledge that I had learned tonight and put it to practice.

It's in the simple acts of prayer and scripture reading where great things can happen and I can't wait to prove myself as a better mother and wife as I do those simple things that will bring me more happiness and harmony in my home.

After all of that I began to look for more answers and came across this great article and felt more motivated to really dig deep and teach my children to "love" the scriptures.